Love & Lust

OK...So I was a bit angry when I wrote this, but I wanted to share it anyway...

Love and Lust
Two very different things
I was blinded by lust
Blinded by the thought of love
How has this happened
Strong and independent
As I am perceived
I lost it with the idea of you
Love, I thought
Was something we formed
But I was absolutely
And utterly wrong
Wrong about you
Wrong about myself
Wrong about us
How easily love fades to anger
How powerful it is
The instant one hears it
One feels lost
Alone
Abandoned
You've left me in a haze
Feelings of myself
Discheveled
Unsure
I'm trying to find that strong
Very sure
Very aware
ME
But she's nowhere to be found
This person I once was
Is now
So tainted
By you
Feelings of love and anger
Mixed together
Can truly be a dangerous thing
What can be done
What should be done
What would be done
Nothing
The truth is
The anguish
Frustration
And embarassment
I feel
Is just that
The anger I feel
Is dealt with on my own terms
See
Because
Now we are back to me
I am the one
Left lost
Alone
Abandoned
Remember
I am the one
Left to pick up the pieces
You shattered
The walls must be replaced
Now
I depend
On only me
In the end
As always before
I am my one true love
This love
True to me
Faithful to me
Completely in love with me
This love will and has
Stood the test of years
Past
And years
To come
Though
I don't regret
All we had
I am sorry it happened
But not sorry for you
Not sorry
That in the end
You've come out on top
Your needs have been met
A comfort
You must get from that
Is the one thing
That makes the anger
Boil inside of me
The thought of your contentment
Keeps me laying awake
Through the night
Of to know
You were suffering
If only for a little bit
Would make me feel
Better
My path to take now
Is towards self
I have taught myself a few lessons
Indeed
But the fairytale had to end
Right
The credits are ready to roll
You had the starring role
And me
I was simply an extra
To be exposed
And left
To the side
Nevermind my future
My life
My heart
As long as your's
Had the happy ending.